Custody/visitation for my 15 month child? Would I throw a grenade at myself?

Q:  Mother has temporary order of protection from my criminal case for domestic violence against me that is subject to family court. We had argument and I shoved her and now she has order of protection against me which state i must stay away from her and the kid.

If I go family court and ask the judge for custody/visitation of my 15 months daughter, how likely or unlikely that I will be able to see my child? I hit the child once before when mom wasn't home. At that time, mom wanted to go out and jogged and I asked her I couldn't handle the kid by myself and we both go together. But she ignored me and still went. After 1 hour later when she returned, she found red marks on my child face. She wanted to called the cop on my but then decided not to later. I think she may have pictures

Additional information

 

If i go in front of a judge in family court and she provided proof or stated that I hit the child. What would happen to me?

A: David's Answer:  If she has proof that you hit a 15-month-old baby in the face, I'd say the most you're realistically looking at is supervised visitation, especially when combined with the alleged domestic violence incident. You can better your case by immediately enrolling in individual counseling, an anger management course as well as a batterer's program. For a full assessment, schedule a consultation with a NYC Child Custody attorney.  -- David Bliven, Bronx Child Custody attorney (www.blivenlaw.net)